Friday, December 28, 2007

Growing Up in the Late '80s

Inspired by a recent post from Cheena and winter break boredom (ex: I'm currently sitting between a snoring Dad and a snoring cat), I went to work digging up some childhood pictures for a glimpse into Vintage Brett.

Cleaning up the earth since '89. Check out my partner's pants.

Listening to some jams while waiting for food. Still a theme in my life.

Waiting for the bus on the first day of kindergarten, showing off my awesome name tag.

Don't ask me. Probably just getting ready to dance the night away. Curse the curfew that kept me in my pj's.

The closest my brother and I have ever been, as you can tell from my expression. Nice dino sweater though, big brother.

Just graduating from preschool (I leaned on the red crayon because it went with the outfit).

I have the same haircut, basically.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

Lessons on Softness

Today was surprisingly warm considering these past couple of snowy weeks. I had to run some errands in the Square and I thought I'd take advantage of the sunny afternoon to walk around my neighborhood.

Whenever I'm hanging out with myself, I always meet the most interesting people. Today it was a brother and sister team handing out free cups of hot chocolate outside of an art gallery for local artists. They said "business was slow" because of the weather, but they were having fun, sneaking in snowball fights between customers. I also talked to a friendly older man who was carrying around a Nikon as well, which was a gift from his daughter. He was still trying to get a handle on it, so I showed him the few tricks I know and in return he let me look at his pictures, which I thought was nice. There were lots of tree branches and empty birds' nests. I was so happy.

Despite finals, despite lack of motivation, despite migraines, it's nice to be reminded that life exists outside of my head. If these are my only setbacks, then I have a lot to be thankful for and excited about. And I am.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

It Gets Dark Early

Yesterday I had a poem workshopped that consisted of three parts. The end of the second part described a dream I'd had, which fell under the scrutiny of some people in my seminar. The obvious question arose: to use or not to use a dream in a poem? One classmate told me, "No, never!" Another told me he didn't have a problem with it, insinuating that typically he's wary of their appearances. Others left it unmarked.

I've never had a problem with dreams in poems. In fact, I rather enjoy them. I don't know if this is strictly a personal aesthetic, or if there is more to the debate. Is using a dream too cheap of a way to include metaphor? An easy image? A dramatic ploy to engage the reader or exaggerate the mood?

I decided to include my dream in my poem because it was, as I felt, applicable and appropriate given the emotions. It was the first time I've incorporated an actual dream into a poem. I always have such vivid dreams, though this wasn't always the case. Sleep used to come easily to me--I could pass out within minutes and not wake up until morning. Then, Summer 2006: I began waking up every night at 2 a.m. without fail. Since then the pattern has only continued, even reaching its current point when I'll wake up again at 4 a.m.

In those valued hours of uninterrupted sleep, I often dream. Some are pleasant (think of the late Selena singing "Dreaming of You"). Some are terrifying (you know, the ones where you actually die and know you're dying). The rest are either fun (I really do wish I had a second floor to my apartment but with slides instead of stairs) or mystifying. But isn't that part of the excitement of actually remembering your dreams?

Anyway, I have no idea where I wanted this to go, but I'll bring it back to poetry. Below is one of my favorite poems by Nick Flynn that doesn't hide from using a dream as a device.
Bag of Mice
I dreamt your suicide note
was scrawled in pencil on a brown paperbag,
& in the bag were six baby mice. The bag
opened into darkness,
smoldering
from the top down. The mice,
huddled at the bottom, scurried the bag
across a shorn field. I stood over it
& as the burning reached each carbon letter
of what you'd written
your voice released into the night
like a song, & the mice

grew wilder.